A Sad Misunderstanding

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Taeseongje... That man will take me home.

One day, without warning, ‘I’ possess Seo Seung-won, a character from the BL novel given to me by my younger brother. Because of the side effects of possession, I keep getting nosebleeds and vomiting blood, and I suffer all kinds of pain. After learning that the pain lessens the more I maintain calm, I desperately try to empty my mind and keep my composure, but as more and more of the original ‘me’’s memories disappear day by day, I can’t stand it. Still, ‘I’ cling to hope and aim for the end of the novel in order to escape this horrible place and return to reality. Following the novel’s flow, I plan to become Taeseongje’s lover, be abandoned, and finally stage my own suicide. All for the sake of going home.

[Preview]

Every time a car passed by, the brutal scene of violence came into view vividly. It felt as if all the blood vessels in my body had shriveled up, and I tightly clenched my suddenly cold hands before slowly backing away. I couldn’t tell if I was moving properly. I’m scared. I was so scared that my whole body was trembling.

Even a person who wasn’t afraid of violence would feel fear here. The chilling sounds of violence grabbed hold of my ankles, and I couldn’t move anymore. My vision went dark on its own. Since I had never seen anyone with the overwhelming presence of someone like Taeseongje anywhere else, a physiological fear washed over me.

He used his lazy voice to shake the man and urge him to answer. Apparently dissatisfied with the answer, he soon ground out the cigarette in the man’s mouth with a bored look in his eyes. The man, convulsing and struggling, flopped about like a freshly caught fish.

For a moment, I wondered if what I was seeing was really happening right in front of me. Whether this was truly happening before my eyes in reality, and not in a movie or a novel.

My thoughts were thrown into confusion, but the cold air and the sound of cars rushing past snapped me back to reality. I felt nauseous, like I might vomit bitter bile. If this was real, what was I supposed to do with a man like that? Date him? Has he lost his mind? How am I supposed to do that?

I turned pale at the crushing sense of defeat.

Even without looking in a mirror, I felt like my face must have gone white.

When Part 2 begins, he’ll come looking for me on his own and try to seduce me, and we’ll become lovers... But to do that, I have to ‘pretend to fall in love’ with that man.

Love? Me and that man? That’s insane. I can’t do it. I absolutely can’t even act it out!

What I had imagined from reading it on the page was different from actually seeing it. Completely different. He might be acting with his own ulterior motives too, and even if he gets caught, it probably won’t matter much to him, but if I get caught, things will be different. Taeseongje is a big figure somewhere between a gangster and a thug. He’s the kind of person who feels no resistance to using people, threatening them, or beating them.

So if I’m caught...

The fear that surged up made a strange noise ring in my ears, and cold sweat poured down me like crazy. Taeseongje used the perfectly ordinary, well-living Seo Seung-won just to make U Ji-min uncomfortable. To him, Seo Seung-won is nothing more than a toy. A toy wouldn’t like it if the toy played games, right.

Because his hands are cruel, as for his own people...